Frustration

Why are the majority of the kids who are worth knowing always older than me? This isn't to say that I don't love my friends that are the same age. I just happen to fond of people in higher grades of schooling. For instance, camp staff. These are easily some of the coolest people I've ever met. Only problem is that they're 18+ years in age, making it rather awkward when I would rather hang out with them then kids my own age.

I feel this will be my lot in life, though. I will forever be attracted to older people. It's not so much that they are indeed older, but the simple fact that my brain seems to be closer to their level of thought and communication than many of the people I associate with. There have actually been instances in which I'll say to myself, "Gosh...if [insert older person's name] were here, they would get it."

I suppose I sound rather conceited at this moment, and I apologize for that. But I can't help it that I love soaking up the wisdom that is equal to or transcends my own. Let's face it, older is often equated with cooler. It's a well known fact of life.

Sad part? I don't think they know how cool they are, or how much they mean to me. These people are what I want to be like when I'm their age. They are the model. I wish I wasn't so readily subject to people's influence, but I am.

Older people validate me, give me peace of  mind with their kind words of recognition. I'm a sucker for it.

I should've been born about 8 years ago...

This is so frustrating...!